So… last year I turned THRITY and I feel good. I’m thirty, thankful and I’m proud of myself. Although, I don’t think I ever want to organise another party for myself again. I have an irrational fear of wasting peoples time and even though I loved it, I was really nervous throughout the day but I am truly blessed with the most amazing family and friends that show up for me. I was extremely overwhelmed and thankful for them that day.

At the date of this post I am a SINGLE babe, it is what it is. Last year I dated someone for a quick minute and it ended a month before my 30th birthday (had me crying on the 24 bus eating a Burger King Chicken Royale; which isn’t even nice anymore) I’m thankful because he reminded me that dating could be fun, playful and stress-free. Especially after I had I spent most of 2021seeking/awaiting validation from a guy who was NEVER gonna give it to me (not his problem…mine) alas let it go and we move. 

2022 I worked hard on my body and I’m in a place where I really do love my body, belly fat and all. Also the LULU LEMON GROOVE PANTS made me love my legs and lil booty even more…forget the bbl baby girls invest in a pair of those pants! Same energy/routine with workouts in 2023 I love the buzz and I love the trainers (S/O Vicky, Fin and Will my go too peeps). I have no fitness goals except…be brave enough to go use the squat rack alone LOL.  

So y’all know I moved on from ASOS last year and got a NEW JOB. I WORKED my ass off to do well at ASOS and I am REALLY proud of the work I was delivered with my team and what I was achieved myself BUT I knew in my heart of heart after 6 years in my first ever job I needed to move out of that comfort zone.

From the moment I knew I had to hand in my notice I was freaking out. When I worked at ShoeZone and decided to quit after 3 months haha I got my mum went to tell them I quit and wasn’t coming back haha…so yeah googling how to resign and all the formalities, I was an anxious nervous wreck. Heading into the unknown… and in this time of WFH (not complaining just saying) starting a new job over Teams also had me on edge.

I went on holiday the week after I handed in my notice but my mind was elsewhere, overthinking things. On holiday I noticed spots on my face that during the day would be very prominent but go away during the night…this continued for many months. Anxiety was affecting my gut health and in turn showing up in the form of acne/pimples. I was stressed and overwhelmed by my own thoughts, it was horrid and it was affecting me internally. I felt like I was disappointing people at ASOS and I was anxious about my new role because I would be learning a new coding language. Looking back, that anxiety and stress was pointless overthinking and the pimples reduced and got better after I calmed my mind. 

I love quote the ‘short term pain, long term gain’ I changed jobs and knew the short term pain (and boy does it hurt) of having to step outside my comfort zone, start from fresh learn a new coding language and having to grow up would be a long term gain in the future (future Tanda, mate I hope it was) right now I’m in the grits of it but I want to do well, I really want to work with my team to build/create solutions using tech, its all NEW to me but I know I needed to do this. 

I say all this to say…comfort zones are great but every now and then take a leap out and see what there is to learn outside of it. Regardless of what happens you gotta be proud of yourself for stepping out and trying something new…whether you fail or not is pointless end of the day you were brave enough to try. 

So yeah, a little life update from me.

Cheers to 2023!